Who Am I?

A tear of the unknown gently caressing my cheek
As the fear of being alone approaches slowly.
A door that opens as I have to leave.
Now where am I to go,
Which way do I turn,
And who am I to be.
Under one roof safe and secure, all these years.
I knew it was only a matter of time,
before you would say it is time to say goodbye.
I will stand strong, I don't need anyone by my side.
No, I don't even want your sympathy.
You will see it doesn't hurt to say good bye.

I will hurt you before you hurt me.

I will push you aside.

Now that I have you convinced
And you truly see I don't need you by my side,
I can leave you before you leave me.
One simple step is all it takes
Out this door that awaits.
I have fooled you, so no pain, worries or regrets,
We just go our separate ways as if we never met
Only one problem now I can see,
I can't fool myself into believing
I won't miss you
I won't be scared
I won't be alone
But I know you have to leave me.
So now where am I to go

Which way am I to turn

And who am I to be?


Michelle Schweiss

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A bit about the writter - I was removed from my home and placed in a foster home where I spent my teens, the only problem was when I was 18 I had to leave. Like any other teen I was so relieved to get out on my  

own and not have to listen to these folks anymore, but I was also scared and felt I was going to be replaced by the next child that came in. I had no where to go. Their duties were over they had no responsibilities to me. It hurt bad, and I wasn't sure what way to turn. I now know something I wish I could of seen several years back, My foster Parents Loved me and will always be there for me. You have parents that bring you into this world and then you have parents the guide you in life and they are very important as you get older, and will always be there for you. When one grows up with so much pain it is hard to say I love you and even harder to say I need you. This Poem is how I felt when I was leaving and I am sure now I am not alone in that feeling. Most important I know now that I am not alone and My fosterparents do love me and will be there if I need. And I wasn't replaced, love is funny there is always room for more with out giving up what you already have.